Not going to lie, this song was catchy as all get out when I first heard it around 2003. One of those choruses that sticks with you for the day. But one solid event in my fraternity days made this a meaningful tune to me.
Long story short, there was a full-fledged fight among my housemates about a group of this one guy’s friends who were always at the house when any type of party was happening, but never joined the frat and paid the $250 bucks a semester, or whatever it was.
I really didn’t care about the guys hanging around. I lived in the house for a dirt-cheap price and as long as that continued, I didn’t care who was around. But one day, said dude blew up and was giving us all a speech in one of the rooms in the house. Only thing was he was constantly interrupted by a phone call trying to reach him.
Best part, the ringtone was this song, “Cold” by Crossfade, so literally every 10 seconds you would here the intro “Looking back at me……” and Crossfade’s singer has this really exaggerated tone that you can hear in the video. Just imagine hearing those four words like 100 times in a row.
We all had a good laugh about it that night and it still gets brought up from time to time today.
But anyway, enough about that, it’s time for one of my favorite pastimes. Listening to a terrible song and taking a deep look into the lyrics to make a factual commentary.
“Looking back at me, I see that I never really got it right”
So, this guy is literally looking back at himself. I’m calling bull sharky because this just isn’t possible. Now if he left off the “at me” part, I would understand that he was just looking back on a time in his life. No sir, Mr. Crossfade is literally looking back at me…..or himself.
“Never stopped to think of you, I’m always wrapped up in things I cannot win”
Obviously, homeboy had a girl on the reg who was maybe a 5 out of 10, meaning she was there, but he never thought of her. Our singer has his mind in the clouds, looking for that nine or 10, things he states he cannot win.
“You’re the antidote that gets me by…”
Not what a girl wants to hear bro. Sure, he’d rather date Blake Lively, but still you’re enough to just get him by.
“What I really meant to say, is I’m sorry for the way I am”
Something has obviously already been said. I’d guess something along the lines of, leave me alone you ugly stalker, I’m trying to UPGRADE. But our singer sees the flawed logic since he’s kind of a dud, and wants to rethink what he said.
“Never meant to be so cold, never meant to be so cold”
Something so heartfelt that he had to say it twice.
“I’m sorry about all the lies, maybe in a different light you can see me stand on my own again”
Really letting himself go here, just basically getting on his knees to win back his five. He probably dropped the “No, I never text other girls or check out their photo albums” line, when obviously he was on the prowl. Now he’s saying he’s changed, there’s a new aura around him. Maybe she’ll take him back?
“I never really wanted you to see the screwed up side of me that I keep locked inside of me so deep”
Here comes our hero coming clean. It’s not only that he had a fixing for a new lady, he also suffers from mental illness, which is no laughing matter. Kind of brings the story full circle. Yea, this guy shouldn’t have lied or chased other women, but on the other hand, he’s likely bipolar. Now there’s a dilemma, if the girl doesn’t listen to what “he really meant to say”, you could argue she’s the shallow one for not helping cope with his struggles.
“I never really wanted you to go”
The sob story of our hero continues, he’s seeing that she’s leaving like dust in the wind, so he’s throwing a few hooks out there, trying to get a bite.
“So many things you should have known”
*See mental illness
“I guess for me there’s just no hope”
Aaaaand, we lost him. Right when I thought this could all be settled, he goes off and says a thing like that. In the end, we get a couple more choruses about what he really meant to say, but he simply was just too cold.